When I began this blog I noted that the frequency with which I post entries would be on a “regularly sporadic basis”. Now having ten months to evaluate that statement, a more accurate statement would have been “my blog posting frequency will have a inverse log-normal distribution”, which, if the distribution holds, means I have one, maybe two, blog entries left for the coming year. Luckily, with only a few blog entries as sample points, there’s far too little data to say with confidence that this trend will continue. Additionally, I promise to buck the trend in the coming year, if only for the reason that nothing I do here is normal, including the distribution of my blog posts.
Last week marked one year in Ethiopia, and, originally, I wanted to write about how normal it felt to live here. But that did not quite fully encompass my current state of mind or status of my experience. Things are different here. If I had the motivation, I could write a very interesting blog by simply posting a list of my daily activities. While most of the things would be mundane, almost every day there would be a few gems that stood out. For example, last week would have included, “Was hand fed raw meat and injera by a middle age lady I didn’t know; returned the favor about an hour later”[1] [2]. At the time of that encounter, I realized it was a little unusual to be hand fed by a complete stranger, but I felt no reservation or embarrassment from participating in the feeding (each other) frenzy.
Basically, I’ve grown comfortable living outside my comfort zone, or, in other words, my comfort zone has grown. A lot.
I’m guessing some readers of this blog are thinking, “Well great, I’m glad you’re comfortable, but what are you actually doing over there???” – a valid question. As it happens, comfort and doing things actually go hand in hand. If you were to ask that question to me 8 months ago an honest answer would have been reading… voraciously, eating poorly prepared food, communicating to people at a 2 year old level, thinking about… deep stuff or something – I think you get the idea. My honest answer now is that I still do all that stuff except the reading has slowed down, the food has gotten better[3], my conversations are longer, and my inclination to decipher the meaning of life has waned (although I think I’ve almost got it). The biggest thing that has changed since 8 months ago is that I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing as a Peace Corps volunteer, working and living with the community, with much greater frequency and efficacy.
Several factors have led to this, and, they all are interconnected in that they have motivated me to get out in the community and expand my comfort zone. For one, I have had plenty of work over the past several months. In August, myself and six other Peace Corps volunteers, with a lot of help from Ethiopian friends and the Peace Corps Ethiopia office, planned and conducted a summer camp for 10th and 11th graders. The camp itself was amazing. It was held over five days covering topics from HIV prevention to environmental protection. The kids who participated were chosen by volunteers, on the general basis that they showed interested in the topics, had adequate English skills[4], and showed potential leadership skills. From Dera, we (my site mate Kelly and I) were lucky enough to bring nine kids, which, for me means that I get nine little leaders who have gone through what essentially amounts to a leadership camp to help me with projects. Currently, we are in the process of establishing the first ever Volunteer Club at the high school. Hopefully, we’ll have the club call out this week as school slowly[5] starts up, and we can increase our little army of volunteers. At my actual office, ASDA[6], work has picked up, as well. For months my biggest apparent asset for the organization has been my ability to use a computer. Therefore, I’ve taken up the task of writing many of the proposals and reports for my organization, which turns out to be a huge boon, because when you write a proposal, you can add in whatever crazy idea you want. In turn, the biggest proposal that I helped write was recently approved, and, now, my small NGO has an operating budget for the next 3 years. Finding out about the proposals approval was both exhilarating and terrifying. Obviously, I helped secure these funds so I’m happy about that, but the fact that my small NGO has to implement all my ideas is incredibly daunting. I’m sure that after January 1, 2012 (when the budget goes into effect) I will have no problems staying busy in Dera.
Besides work related activities, the recent decision to ask one of my friends in town to be my language tutor has greatly boosted my integration and comfort in the community (even a year into service). Peace Corps offers a stipend to all volunteers to hire a language tutor in our respective sites. I never did because I naively thought that with all my free time, I’d have no problem making myself study – of course this didn’t happen. Now I sit down multiple times a week to analyze and practice the language that I should be primarily communicating with, Amharic[7]. In addition to the obvious effect of learning the language, my tutor, Kirubel, has taken me under his wing and introduced me to some of his friends around town. So now, in the short month since we’ve started language lessons, I can understand/speak the language surprisingly better, have more friends in Dera, and I can keep up on the town’s gossip. Although, outside of Ethiopia, Amharic doesn’t have much value as languages go, it will be nice to know another language.
The last factor that I can identify as contributing to my increasing comfort zone is simply the fact that I’ve been here a year. Things that made me feel awkward or angry before, I either shrug it off or deal with it in my own way. If a little kid taunts me by yelling “money, money, money”, I have two go-to options: 1. If I’m feeling energetic I will chase them down and make them cry, 2. If I’m tired, eh, I’ll get them later. If a grown man wants to rest his elbow on my thigh, I don’t miss a beat[8]. It’s a very idiosyncratic culture that takes some time to get used to. Once you get past that you’ll find people that you can relate to, some bad, but mostly good. I’m most excited to spend my second year in this country because I believe that my comfort level is at a point that I’ll be able to enjoy it better – be less ignorant of the world around me. I feel like a tennis player that just completed his first year on the tour (my comfort zone represents my 56 week ranking). When I arrived here I had no matches under my belt, so everything was new and uncomfortable. Now that I’ve been here a year, I’ve filled out my 56 week portfolio and my comfort zone is on par with my more experienced peers. With a year of experience under my belt, I am expecting to enter my prime.
Now Reading: Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace; Watership Down by Richard Adams
Recently Finished: A Dance with Dragons by George R.R. Martin
[1] The act of feeding someone by hand is a common cultural practice in Ethiopia. The Amharic name is “gursha”, which can translate to mouthful, morsel, bonus, gratuity, or tip for services (mouthful would be most appropriate in this case). As for “gursha” etiquette, giving only one “gursha” is kind of rude, giving two “gursha”’s is generally appropriate and implies friendship, however, three “gursha”’s (and beyond I presume) shows that your intentions are… less than pious.
[2] The reason for the footnotes is likely because I’ve been reading a lot of articles on www.grantland.com. You should check it out if you haven’t already – a few really good writers (and a few bad ones) writing about sports and pop culture.
[3] My cooking secret for Ethiopian food is to take the amount of oil, salt, and time you think is appropriate and double it, at least.
[4] The camp was conducted mostly by PCV’s, and our Amharic skills aren’t quite up to par.
[5] Technically school started on September 14, but, including teachers, no one really shows up that day. Apparently, school really starts like a old fashioned steam engine getting up to speed, as students and teachers, alike, shuffle in on their own time throughout the first two or three weeks of class.
[6] The Association for Sustainable Development (ASDA), is my counterpart NGO that I’m working with.
[7] Afan Oromo is also spoken in my town but mostly in the countryside. Since I’m living in the town it’s more practical to learn Amharic, but I’m also learning a little Afan Oromo.
[8] It’s common to see male friends be physically affectionate with each other (e.g. holding hands on the street). Despite this, Ethiopia is a very anti-gay country.